It is the last expecting season, the season belongs to three of us, the freezing season with one snowstorm every week. But just like the motherhood, it is touching, poetic and beautiful.

I will cherish those little moments when only we three are together without baby stuff and I know for sure I am going to miss them for the next few months. During Thanksgiving, we hibernated at home decorating our tree, picking presents and getting them wrapped. But I still feel owing my elder daughter a one-on-one date, an ice cream date, maybe.

And always owe my darling a date. That would be a picnic in a tranquil park until the sun disappears and the darkness takes over, or just a hand-in-hand short walk in the sunset.

But I know it is actually a good time for expecting that may give a chance of reflection. Just like our first child, we don’t consider too much what we want to pass on to her, or what I want her to remember from her childhood. We would never be able to push her to be a physicist if she does not even want to step into her father’s lab, or teach her how to figure out the tax if she prefers taking advantage of Turbo tax rather than her mom’s knowledge.

But I really want to teach my children to appreciate a lot of small things, so that they can find beauty in a ray of morning light, a piece of music, or some simple drawings.

I want to teach them to be open to bad and good, that life is not just black and white, but also comes in many scales of grey.  Adventures await out there, do not stuck in other people’s thoughts or our expectation.  We know being your own kind of brave is not easy.

I want to teach them to listen, forgive and give second chances by telling one sister to apologize to the other, when someone is being bad.

The video down here contains some of my thoughts during this expecting season. Though I have been here once before, I still would like to list all the little things I want to remember about becoming a mother to my children, like how they stop crying the minute they are in my arms, all because they are only little once. Let the story start here…